Enough

this song is all too perfect...

"Breaking Inside"-Shinedown

I caught a chill

and it's still frozen on my skin

I think about why

I'm alone, by myself

No one else to explain

how far do I go?

No one knows

If the end is so much better, why don't we just live forever?

Don't tell me I'm the last one in line

Don't tell me I'm too late this time

I don't want to live

To waste another day

Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made

Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside

I don't want to fall and say I lost it all

'Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall

Leaving pieces of me behind

And I feel like I'm breaking inside

Out here, nothings clear

Except the moment I decided to move on and I ignited

Disappear into the fear

You know there ain't no comin' back

When you're still carrying the past

You can't erase, separate

Cigarette in my hand,

Hope you all understand

I won't be the last one in line

I finally figured out what's mine

I don't want to live

To waste another day

Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made

'Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside

I don't want to fall and say I lost it all

'Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall

Leaving pieces of me behind

Leaving pieces of me behind

And I feel like I'm breaking inside

I won't be the last one in line,

I finally figured out what's mine

I don't want to live

To waste another day

Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made

'Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside

I don't want to fall and say I lost it all

'Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall

Leaving pieces of me behind

Leaving pieces of me behind

And I feel like I'm breaking inside

And I feel like I'm breaking,

I feel like i'm breaking inside

I love you all. I appreciate all the advice, council, thoughts and concerns i've been getting...I really, REALLY do! And I promise you i'm thinking about all of it seriously. Life is too damn short to be as stressed as I have been the past few days. Life is too short to be unhappy. "Tell my mother, tell my father i've done the best I can to make them realize this is my life. I hope they understand..."

Spiders...

..I HATE them!! It seems like i've killed a billion of them this past month! Someone please tell me of a wonderful bugs pray that WORKS because by the looks of things you would think the one I have now is just water!

♥Twitterpated♥

About friggin time for an update dont ya think?!
So...here is what has happend since my last post...brace yourself!
Okay..for those that still dont know..Nestor and I got a divorce. Things happend..and everything fell apart. I was a mess for a long time and didnt think I would be able to recover for a LOOOONG time...but..I have! I dont want to dwell on what went wrong because if I do that then my life will suck and lets face it, nobody wants a sucky life! So..I picked myself up, dusted myself off, and jumped back into the pool of life head first! I can honestly say that right now, at this moment in my life I've never been happier!! I've been going on some dates, met some fun people, and been havin a BLAST! Work for me has been going awesome! I love it! And I'm still doing a little hair every now and then at my house. ...small story time...ok..I know im going to get made fun of a little for this..but oh well..so..I joined this LDS dating website and it has been so much fun! I HIGHLY reccomend it to every single LDS person out there!! Even if your not looking for a serious relationship right now its nice to see whos out there..and ya never know where things will go! One of my friends told me about it and I was a little reluctant to join at first because I wasnt too sure if I wanted to start dating again..but let me tell you, I am SOOO glad I did!! I've been talking and texting to this awesome, super sweet, all around amazing guy 24/7 for the past few weeks! Its still way too soon to see where things can go but I sure LOVE talking to him in the meantime!!! I havent smiled this much in a LOOOONG time! So, you can say im pretty twitterpated right now (and its an awesome feeling)!!! And dont worry..I'm NOT rushing into anything! :) :) :) I believe that everything happens for a reason! What doesnt kill us makes us stronger! And I believe that because of what i've been through in my life I know what it is I truely want now and wont let anything get in my way of getting it! And who is to say that there is a specific timeline for things to happen in!? Only the Lord and I know how I feel inside. Who knows where things will go...but i'm excited to see how things turn out! All I do know is that I cant stop smiling and that i've never been as happy as I am now! Hooray for loving life! Hooray for being happier than ever! And HOORAY for being twitterpated!!! ♥♥♥

Good laughs!

So one of my friends told me about this website...freakin funny as crap! Some of the stuff is on the foul side...but most of it will give you a good laugh! Check it out..

www.failblog.org

hehe!

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H♥♥ray

-New fave song-"Broken Strings" by James Morrison (its on my playlist)

-New fave icecream- Imagine Whirled Peace by Ben and Jerry's...crap SOO GOOD!

-New fave chips- Baked Cheddar & Sour cream...thanks Stace! (PS those Buffalo ones are dang good too!)

-New jeans-..already can be taken off w/o undoing them..dang flang-it! (I got them like 2 weeks ago)

-New shirts-need some..LETS GO SHOPPING!!! 

P.S. ..count is now to 60lbs!..I like this game! 

♥ you all!

55

Just wanted to share with everyone that -so far- i'm down 55 lbs!! YAY!  Still have a lil ways to go, but gettin there! How are all you other Biggest Loser losers doing? :P

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♥ LOVE ♥

The new The Fray cd!! Everyone needs to get it!! Sooo good!!! 

EVERY song is good! 

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